Bound to Come Back

I have this dear guy friend from college. He's amazing, really. We became really close a few months before my departure from school. I mean, we hung out a ton...and were almost close to becoming more. Had I not left, who is to say what would've happened.

For instance, when I did come back home and was dating this guy, he instant messaged me that he'd been thinking about me a lot, and was upset I was gone. Kind of just putting himself out there. Unfortunately, I was already dating someone...and it was new, so I didn't think too much about it, though I definitely reciprocated those feelings. There was just nothing I could do.

A couple years have gone by since all of this, and we've hung out a couple of times since. Those times were always fantastic and when I'd leave, I'd feel the same sadness that I felt before. D always made me laugh, and I never got tired of hanging out with him. I think about him often. We talk every few months and say how bad we need to get together, etc.

This most recent conversation just happened. I've been thinking about him for a couple days, now...*sigh*. I'm pretty sure he still feels the same, and I've never stopped caring about him. I have R, but don't you ever just wonder sometimes if there's something higher than us that causes us to wonder about "those who got away" (for lack of a better phrase). I was telling the BFF today that I feel like it's something I need to see about before I can move along any further in my current or future relationships. I feel like I'll regret it if I don't...but I don't know how to go about any of it!!!

I know that things are totally different than they were a few years ago...but it's just something I can't explain. It's like there's some gravitational pull that pulls me back into thinking about him and keeping in touch. What if? Ya know what I mean? What if's are such pains in the ass. Grr.

Giddy Like a School Gal

I go to the convenient mart every morning for my cup of joe. For around a year or so now, I sometimes see this guy on my morning trip. You get used to seeing some of the same people around the same time at the store, ya know? I only see him once every few weeks though.
He drives a truck, has a Texas license plate, and is pretty hot.

One time he was on his cell while getting his coffee, and talking to what I assume is his girlfriend. He said "I love you, too" when ending the call, and he didn't have a wedding ring on. He also is fond of wearing cowboy boots....that's not usually my thing, but whatever, still hot. Though, one morning I saw him and he didn't look so hot. My little crush wavered, but it didn't matter since it's only a baby crush and just something to make my mornings a little better.

But then...yesterday morning...I pulled into the parking spot and looked to my left and saw him! It had been awhile since I'd last seen him. Looked like he shaved and got a haircut. He was in the process of getting out of his truck. He looked at me. I'd always wondered if he noticed me at all, and at least on this morning I looked a little more presentable than usual.

I didn't pay very much attention, just went inside to get my coffee. As I was pouring, he comes in and is standing next to me to get his coffee, too. And then...HE SPOKE! He said, "Man, the way some people drive just makes me crazy!" I let out a little laugh and said, "Yeah, I know." Then, he continued on to say...actually, I'm not really sure what all he said as I was in shock...something about "just go around me, ya know?" "Yeah," I said, with another giggle. Awkward.

He goes up to the register to pay for his coffee and is chatting for a quick second with the lady at the cashier (she knows most of us morning regulars). He said who knows what while laughing and looked at the both of us, so I laughed too and pretended I knew what he was talking about. Really, I was just checking him out and trying to read his shirt to see where it said he works! hahaha

AND that's my story! Pretty good for a Monday morning, right?

Holy Moly!

Yikes! I haven't posted anything in quite some time, eh? (Sorry!)

As usual, I've been super busy, and everytime I mean to come on here for an update, some more stuff gets thrown in my face and keeps me from here.

Anyways, hmmm...I'm thinking I'm just going to do a little run down of life lately:

1. I have an abundance of house centipedes -- I've been seeing/killing about 2-3 per week. They are gross, but at least they eat spiders while inhabiting my home, right?

2. I am getting a king sized bed TOMORROW! Yay! Finally...I've been wanting one for years.

3. This past Friday one of my favorite girlfriends was in from Chi-Town, so we all went out and had great fun!

4. Then on Saturday I was really hungover for my other girlfriend's brief, small wedding and then OUT again to celebrate a birthday!

5. AND another of my favorite girlfriends surprised us all by flying in on Saturday morning for the night, so she got to come to the wedding and out that night! (Awesome!)

6. I wore heels which I rarely do...and I learned my lesson. My right foot was BLEEDING by the time I got home and took the shoes off AND I've got blisters on both feet.

7. Everyone wants me to come and visit them. It sucks that it's way too hard to make it to see everyone....with work and not alotta money, who can do it?!

8. I've decided that I would really love to have a coton de tulear puppy. Please?!

I'll be back soon!